Here's what happened: a girl, S, came to visit, who I'd met at a con in October. I really thought we were going to have sex, but instead we fooled around and cuddled, and she said she wasn't in the mood. S went to sleep, and I was up all night on an insomnia jag. I wrote a stand up comedy bit, watched movies on TV, took my T shot, and finally ( Read more... )

It occurs to me that sometimes I am just not a nice person. Just now I was thinking that secretly I judged D for having too many straight friends, that he was never gonna be really queer to me in part because of that. Then I was thinking about this group of friends I'm bringing out Friday night to celebrate my last day at this client site, and the ( Read more... )

Finished talking with D and feel better about some things. I think it's just going to take me longer to understand how he works, what he wants, what he expects from me, and what I can ask of him. Now talking to E on IMs. I miss E sometimes. He's younger than me but sometimes wiser. You have no idea how irritating that is ( Read more... )